Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Weigh-In Wednesday Nov 28

My desire has been to be accountable.  By posting each week I feel I am accountable to myself and to you.  However, I am such a hider.  When things are good, I easily want to post.  When things are bad, I hide.  I find something to do and believe me, as a single working mother of four active littles there is always something I can find to do instead of sitting down and sharing my results.

I have got to get over this.  It would be nice if everything along this journey was happy and positive.  It isn't.  Sometimes I hurts.  Sometimes it is ugly.  Sometimes it is stagnant.  The journey has ups and it has downs.  I am learning to be ok with both.  It is the both that make my journey authentic.

So, on that note.

The last time I posted my weight on my blog was on Halloween. At that point it was

Highest Weight: 279
Last Weight: 248
Current Weight: 253

247 lbs -6 lbs since last weigh in
-32lbs total

Woo to the Hoo!!

Not to shabby after a crazy indulgent weekend of food.  Which that is another not so pleasant topic worth addressing.

I did pretty good at the actual Thanksgiving meal.  The kids and I had done our 5K that morning so I had the calorie burn I needed.  My breakfast had been a protein shake. I mananged to eat sensibly at dinner.  Wasn't stuffed. Only a bite of stuffing.  A bite of potatoes.  A nice helping of white turkey meat. And so forth.

However, my struggle came later.  The PIES.  My emotions took over.  I felt alone in a house full of 30 people (anyone else ever feel the most alone when surrounded my people?).  Holidays are hard.  Especially when you are the only one in your family that has been divoced and you see couples everywhere.  I know they each share in their own struggles.  I get that.  On a daily basis I do pretty good.  The holidays just seem to intensify feelings I would rather keep buried.

Then, Friday night the kids and I indulged in a frozen food dinner party.  Totino's pizza (they are the crappiest form of pizza you can buy but once in a while I crave one like nothing else), frozen stuffed cheese pretzels, frozen burritos, deli california rolls, and everything needed to make milkshakes at home.  I think you get the idea.  I didn't eat until gorged.  But I ate. I ate enough.

So there ya have it.  The down part.  I celebrate my weight loss.  I am sad because I know it would have been higher had I not slipped over the weekend.

This week I am back on track with no wheat/ no sugar.  I know I struggle with it.  However, my body performs better, feels better, rests better and thinks better when I eat clean.  It is my head I have to get out of the way.  I have been adding spinach to my morning vanilla protein shake. I LOVE IT!!!  Usually I do vanilla protein powder, ice cubes, water, frozen strawberries, frozen pineapple and a large handful of spinach.  Try it.  You can not even taste the spinach and it adds some great nutrients.

I have got in a workout of some sort every day this week.  My desire is to hit the gym for my 3 mile run at 5 a.m. and then again after work for weights and classes.  No such luck.  My home life comes first.  Kids have activities.  I have choir practice at the university.  We have family time, shopping time, down time and cleaning time.  Therefore, my goal is to be gentle with myself.  Get in 20 min of yoga if I am short on time.  Do a zumba video in my room while dinner cooks if that is all I can do.  On the nights I can hit the gym, I hit the gym.  I have re-fallen in love with Body Combat class at Gold's.  Basically I am ok with doing what I can, when I can. Don't get me wrong....I am not letting myself off easy.  I am getting in a workout everyday. Just can't guilt myself when I can't get in a 3 mile run and one hour of weight training every day.  It just is not where I am in my life.  I want to love on my littles.

Speaking of which....check out my littles busting the moves at our post Thanksgiving workout on Friday with our dear friend Kathy.  Oh my goodness, I love these kids.  Miss B was at my sisters so she missed out on all the fun.

Monday Night

Tonight (Wednesday)
I also want to send a shout out to Tiffany at Dance Lift Run. She was brave enough not to hide from her Wednesday Weigh In post even when her results where not what she wanted.  I read her post earlier today and knew I couldn't hide.

Thanks for sharing this journey with me....all three of you that read this.  :)  Would love to hear your thoughts. Did you have a tough holiday?  What are you doing to get back on track?  Any great green smoothie recipes?

Happy Wednesday everyone!!

1 comment:

  1. Ack! My blog did not tell me you linked to me... THANK YOU! I'm glad I could inspire you to post even when you didn't want to! I hope we've both had a better week since last Wednesday. :) I just bought a bag a spinach to start adding to smoothies! Actually I just did a full fridge clean-out!! I want to say that even though I don't always comment here or on your Facebook, you're someone I look to for inspiration to keep going. You have a lot on your plate, but you're doing it! *BIG HUGS*