As September approached I had ideas of a great new start. New season. New month. New week. There is something about the turning of the calendar that gives me hope and renewal. My plan was to announce a group of like minded people and enjoy September from day one with each day moving towards more of my health focused goals.
And then life happened. After a four-wheeler accident on August 7, my son FINALLY got to the person we needed and surgery was performed on Aug 28.
He did fabulous and is healing wonderful with the help of a wound vac. This is everything that I have prayed for. That said, school had also just started that week.
New routine after the end of our summer fun has thrown all of us. So my point is, September 1 came...and September 1 went. I never set up my group. I never posted for people to join me. With everything going on I believe I pulled away from social media the last week to a great extent.
And then came the internal guilt. I want o reach my goals. I felt I missed my window. The first passed. Thought I could pull it together on the second. The second passed. On Thursday the third we did pull together at the last minute a celebration of joy party. As a family we were so tired of all the yuck from August
- lost both of our Newfoundland's within a 48 hour period. Their deaths hit us hard.
- three of us had strep
- Keaton had his accident
- three weeks of hematoma getting worse and worse
- two of my childhood friends took their own lives
So as each day passed the story I started to tell myself was that I wasn't worth running a group or achieving my goals. I started telling myself I was a phony because I couldn't pull it together when I wanted to do it. For a minute I started to believe those stories. I saw some things on FB that tore away some more at my self image and I decided I wasn't going to try to run the group.
Then I thought of a friend. She had awesome success last month. She happened to be in one of my challenge groups. She did the work on her own but the accountability helped her stay focused. I reached out to her and she agreed the lack of accountability the last week had thrown her a little.
See I need the groups and it appears those in the groups need them as well. There is something about checking in each day (in a safe place) that helps keep us on track and when we get of track it helps get us back on.
I start today. I am creating my group super quick and will add people as the month goes on. There are a few ready to go. I am ready to go. I need the accountability. I need the community.
In addition....I am going to blog. I can't commit to it happening often. My life is super busy and if I miss my expectation those stories will start back up. I am shooting for weekly to start. One post a week will keep me going for now and if I get more in even better.
I may be starting late.
I may be the turtle in the group.
I have so much to learn.
I still battle those stories I tell myself.
Late is better than never.
Turtles finish the race.
I have come so far already.
Those stories can change when I do the work.
I know I have been here before. I know I have had these fresh starts before. I know that as long as I don't quit, I have not failed.
My group is forming now. We will start a prep week Monday, September 7. We will officially launch Monday, September 14.
If you are interested.....even a little...contact me.
If you can relate to something in my story we need to connect. I need you. You need me.
- Obese the majority of my adult life
- food addictions
- food triggers
- experience depression
- single parent
- employed full-time
- desire to stay active
- desire to eat health
- desire to teach your children better habits
- pre-diabetic or diabetic
- have children with weight concerns
- body image issues
We need each other.